I expect betrayal from the people that I know
cuz people always fail, friends will come and go
but my body’s the one, the one that I can’t trust
my body talks behind my back before it stabs me in the gut

and it’s doing things I would never have believed
sometimes I win the fight, sometimes it brings me to my knees

a deep breath, I can feel fire leap between my palms
a deep breath, we’ll call it a truce if I can just keep hanging on
a deep breath, I can feel oceans rise and then recede
a deep breath, I don’t know whether to hate or love what’s inside of me

every day’s a struggle but I smile on the street
I keep my enemies close and now the secret lives in me
the pills and the needles, the scalpels and IVs
I keep closing my eyes and thinking “this cannot be me”

but when I open my eyes I feel the same
a prisoner held captive by fear and pain

then a deep breath, and I can feel fire leap between my palms
a deep breath, we’ll call this a truce if I can just keep hanging on
a deep breath, I can feel oceans rise and then recede
a deep breath, I don’t know whether to hate or love what’s inside of me

when my body betrays me, I don’t know whether to hate or love
what’s inside of me